I Remember.............

I have had a bunch of calls today from moms RSVPing for Nicholas'
Birthday Party for Sunday.

I think it is starting to set in that my Baby Boy is turning "6"     



His actual Birthday isn't until the 18th. but his party with his classmates is this week.

It seems like just yesterday I had the positive test, Evan was the first to find out.

I remember him asking me "mommy why are you crying?"

Me... "Because I am so happy you are going to have a baby brother or sister."

I rememember going to Walgreens with Evan to buy Mikel a "baby" card and a rattle.

I remember the dinner I cooked that night... BBQ chicken, rice, corn on the cob.



Nicholas at his own Baby Shower since he arrived the day before the planned one
and they had to reschedule it for when we got home.
He was 15 days old here.



I remember it all like it was yesterday because it was something we had wanted so bad.

I remember Mikel's reaction when reading the card..... the surprise look and the joy that set in.

I remember worrying for 9 months with him in my belly because of a little thing called Diabetes

I remember waking up at 4:12 am thinking I may have drank too much water..

then realizing my water had just broke.

I remember sitting in the bathroom crying and thinking this can't be happening.

I remember waking Mikel up and him asking "are you serious?"

I remember going in to let my mom know..... she has never woken up so quick in her life!!! (EVER!)

I remember calling Nicole... my sister.... asking her what she was doing ( at about 4:45am)

Letting her know why I was calling.... The 18th happens to be her birthday also.

I remember Mikel trying to get me to the hospital and me lolly gagging.... I guess I was in disbelief...



I remember the ride to the hospital and the "name" discussion.... if he came out with light hair he would be Ethan and dark hair he would be Nicholas (Evan wanted Nicholas all along)... well guess what color hair he had.

I remember being hooked up to the monitors, and the doctor coming in concerned about his heart rate...

I remember the look on the doctors' face when he said at 10:45am that he would be more comfortable with the baby on the outside where they could monitor him much better.

I remember at 12:26pm the doctors pulling him out after quite the tug of war

I remember the doctor saying "Wow he looks like an 11" and Mikel and I thinking what is he talking about... well it was pounds he was speaking of... he was close.... 10 lb 13 oz...

I remember the frantic look on Mikel's face in the recovery room when he had to tell me Nicholas was in the NICU.

I remember the first time I saw him hooked up to a ton of machines and never being so scared in my life.

I remember when the pediatrician said Nicholas was in the clear and could go home. 5 days of our lives that seemed like an eternity at the time.

Now it feels as though the past 6 years has flown by, our little peanut is getting so big. He is growing taller, getting smarter turning into a wonderful little young man.

This is true testiment to the old saying.... time really does fly...... and they grow up too fast.



I hope that I will always remember the moments as vividly as I do now, and that in the years to come I remember now and future happenings as well.